7.17.2009
5.26.2009
2nd Anniversary.
Jason and I got to spend our second anniversary in our favorite place! Texas! Yay!
This is what my sweet husband got me for our anniversary.
It is a black and white diamond square knot. :) It fits together perfectly with us and our story.
10.03.2008
Missing You, Debbie.
For friends and family who may not yet know, Jason and I lost a very special part of our family and hearts.
My sweet and beautiful, inside and out, Mother-in-law passed away Monday, September 22, 2008.
From the very beginning of my relationship with Jason, Debbie welcomed me into her life, family and home. I miss so much, the time we spent together. This morning, I sat outside, where we sat together, many times, where I would come and sit and talk, sometimes paint my nails, whatever it may have been, while Debbie smoked, read or just sat outside enjoying the day and her garden. It is very hard to lose anyone that you love, most especially, someone who was such a huge part of your life.
I feel so amazingly blessed for the time I had both with Debbie, or as I referred to her, Mom, because she was a Mother to so many, including many friends and family members. I don't think you are ever ready to lose anyone you love and I realize now, even when someone may be sick, it is not any easier than losing someone who passes unexpectedly, as my Dad did. Everyone asks, was it sudden? And, to me, yes, it still was. I definitely did not know that when she came to visit with other family members in July, that it would be the last time I laughed with her, hugged her or just enjoyed her company in silence.
For someone who I may have only known a short few years, I will miss her for a lifetime.
I love you, Debbie-Mom. I miss you.
My sweet and beautiful, inside and out, Mother-in-law passed away Monday, September 22, 2008.
From the very beginning of my relationship with Jason, Debbie welcomed me into her life, family and home. I miss so much, the time we spent together. This morning, I sat outside, where we sat together, many times, where I would come and sit and talk, sometimes paint my nails, whatever it may have been, while Debbie smoked, read or just sat outside enjoying the day and her garden. It is very hard to lose anyone that you love, most especially, someone who was such a huge part of your life.
I feel so amazingly blessed for the time I had both with Debbie, or as I referred to her, Mom, because she was a Mother to so many, including many friends and family members. I don't think you are ever ready to lose anyone you love and I realize now, even when someone may be sick, it is not any easier than losing someone who passes unexpectedly, as my Dad did. Everyone asks, was it sudden? And, to me, yes, it still was. I definitely did not know that when she came to visit with other family members in July, that it would be the last time I laughed with her, hugged her or just enjoyed her company in silence.
For someone who I may have only known a short few years, I will miss her for a lifetime.
I love you, Debbie-Mom. I miss you.
9.03.2008
Anticipation.
Here I am. Sitting at my computer. I have one full day left, to actually be able to dedicate to cleaning my house, before Mom and Melinda get here, but I am spending time online, because time always seems to slip away from me here, therefore, time appears to pass quicker.
I am totally unmotivated, because I am super excited that I can finally entertain people, at my home! Yay! Plus, we have not been downtown in probably a month, because of other engagements and happenings.
I am so excited to cook and take them to places I have fallen in love with and also, go to places I have not yet, been.
I love my life. I feel so blessed and fortunate to have what I have and be able to enjoy everything that I have. I know we all get carried away sometimes, worrying or being negative, but I have definitely noticed a change, since some of the negativity that was affecting me in a not so good way, is out of my life. I can concentrate on surrounding myself with people who are positive and appreciative of the short lives we are blessed with. After all, time is all we have, when it is all said and done.
I am totally unmotivated, because I am super excited that I can finally entertain people, at my home! Yay! Plus, we have not been downtown in probably a month, because of other engagements and happenings.
I am so excited to cook and take them to places I have fallen in love with and also, go to places I have not yet, been.
I love my life. I feel so blessed and fortunate to have what I have and be able to enjoy everything that I have. I know we all get carried away sometimes, worrying or being negative, but I have definitely noticed a change, since some of the negativity that was affecting me in a not so good way, is out of my life. I can concentrate on surrounding myself with people who are positive and appreciative of the short lives we are blessed with. After all, time is all we have, when it is all said and done.
8.08.2008
101 in 1001.
This is a list of 101 things I would like to do in 1001 days. :) I will update, shortly. :)
1. Finish my Photography degree. [Completed]
2. Buy a media card reader, for my USB Port. [Completed, bought a laptop with a card reader. :)]
3. Design my own line of clothing.
4. Make jewelry out of the clay I have had almost a year, now.
5. Create a logo for my photography business. [Completed]
6. Decide whether or not I want a job, before the end of the year. [Completed]
7. Take a honeymoon, finally. [Completed 12/08]
8. See the ball drop on New Years' in Times Square. [Completed 1/1/09]
9. Find out if it is, in fact, too late to learn to perform traditional (Irish) set and céilí dances.
10. Do project 365 with my photography. [Currently working on this]
11. Get canvas prints of my photography.
12. Learn to sew.
13. Eat at the Blue Moon Diner, in Baltimore, MD. [Completed, 7/12/09]
14. Have blueberry pancakes at Eastern Market, on a Saturday morning. [I had crepes instead. :)]
15. Ride the Metro, by myself. [Completed]
16. Complete a 26 Things project, all on places/things in DC.
17. Create an actual photography website. [In the process]
18. Shoot a deployment return/reunion. [Completed 1/09]
19. Create my own camera bag, and use it. [Completed]
20. Get a piggybank. Fill it.
21. Don't be afraid to take tons of photos at Eastern Market's produce section. [Completed]
22. Buy some Louboutin's, or atleast pick out the ones I will some day, have. [Completed]
23. Make my own fashion blog.
24. Actually finish a scrapbook, I start. [Completed]
25. Make a montage of photos from Boy Scout Camp. [Completed, slideshows with Jason Summer 2009]
26. Make a tribute of photos, of my Dad.
27. Buy more filters for my camera lenses. [Completed 8-4-08]
28. Get some abs.
29. Stop procrastinating. [Completed]
30. Frame and sale some of my work.
31. Actually rock my PINK wedding shoes. :D
32. Step up from my Pilates Beginning Mat workout, and onto the Weight Loss one.
33. Memorize the Hula dance from my video and perform it for anyone who cares. ;)
34. Start journaling, again.
35. Write a new poem.
36. Lose 10 pounds, before Christmas. [Completed]
37. Actually weigh myself. [Completed 8-08]
38. Realize that no matter what I weigh, I look good, already. It ain't nuttin' but a number. [Completed]
39. Work at camp, atleast one more summer. [Completed]
40. Set up a darkroom.
41. Learn Spanish, with Rosetta Stone. I guess it doesn't have to be with The Stone. :)
42. Get my camera's lighting right at night, and take a great photo of DC at night. [Completed]
43. Memorize, for the most part, my camera's manual, so I can use my camera to it's maximum potential. :)
44. Take my Tripod out of its box, and use it. [Completed 09/08]
45. Pay off my Victoria's Secret card, whose balance is high, only because Semi Annual just passed. Normally it is always zeroed out.
46. Make my own mean cup of Chai tea.
47. Make some specialty cupcakes for the guys Jason works with. [Completed]
48. Branch out and try to meet new people. [Completed]
49. Get to know the neighbors, better. [Completed]
50. Use watermarks/graphics on my photos. [Completed]
51. Take my Mom to Eastern Market. [Completed 09/08]
52. Buy some of the beautiful flowers they sell at the Market. [Completed]
53. Get better at graphics. [Completed]
54. Create and buy my own items from Cafe Press. :)
55. Make up my own recipes. [Completed]
56. Host a dinner party and be an amazing hostess. [Completed]
57. Make an apron.
58. Sell my stuff at Eastern Market.
59. Make a cord bracelet.
60. Bring some more Blue Bell back up to DC, next time I go down South.
61. Set up my own backdrop. [Completed]
62. Set up in faery set.
63. Have a fashion photoshoot.
64. Design my own lingerie line.
65. Learn to play Cribbage.
66. Create my own artwork, aside from photography.
67. Have frozen hot chocolate at Serendipity3 in NYC. [Visited Serendipity3, 1/09]
68. Go to Central Park. [Completed 1/09]
69. Have a cupcake at Magnolia Bakery or Billy's Bakery, in NYC. [2 cupcakes from Magnolia, 1/09]
70. Identify 100 things that make me happy.
71. See the lighting of a Christmas tree in DC. [Completed, Alexandria, 11/08]
72. Go to a Nats game. [Completed Summer 2009]
73. Keep in touch with friends, better. [Completed]
74. Get my Look Book up to speed.
75. Make my own lists of fashion rules I live by. [Completed]
76. Make my own soap.
77. Go to Thrift Shops in this area. [Completed]
78. Get a 'Go-to' bag. [Completed 8-1-08]
79. Make my own body scrub.
80. Make my own lip gloss.
81. Create a portfolio of my work.
82. Learn how to tie a bandana on my head, correctly.
83. Enter my photos in contests. [Completed 09/08]
84. Make my own biscotti.
85. Take some new black and white photos.
86. Catch up with an old friend. [Completed 10/08]
87. Organize my bookmarks, on Firefox. [Completed]
89. Make artwork for walls. [Completed]
90. Create photo collage on walls. [Completed]
91. Create a theme for the random, upstairs spare room.
92. Make my own cupcake recipe.
93. Decide on kids' names. [Completed]
94. Decide where we would like to move, after DC. [Completed]
95. Go to the Maryland Renaissance Festival. [Completed]
96. Visit the National Cathedral. [Completed]
97. Visit atleast one Embassy.
98. Take a tour of the Capitol City Brewery. [Completed]
99. Go to Georgetown. [Completed 12/08]
100. Take Jason to the Spy Museum.
101. Get a GREAT fireworks shot. [Completed, NYC, 1/01/09]
1. Finish my Photography degree. [Completed]
2. Buy a media card reader, for my USB Port. [Completed, bought a laptop with a card reader. :)]
3. Design my own line of clothing.
4. Make jewelry out of the clay I have had almost a year, now.
5. Create a logo for my photography business. [Completed]
6. Decide whether or not I want a job, before the end of the year. [Completed]
7. Take a honeymoon, finally. [Completed 12/08]
8. See the ball drop on New Years' in Times Square. [Completed 1/1/09]
9. Find out if it is, in fact, too late to learn to perform traditional (Irish) set and céilí dances.
10. Do project 365 with my photography. [Currently working on this]
11. Get canvas prints of my photography.
12. Learn to sew.
13. Eat at the Blue Moon Diner, in Baltimore, MD. [Completed, 7/12/09]
14. Have blueberry pancakes at Eastern Market, on a Saturday morning. [I had crepes instead. :)]
15. Ride the Metro, by myself. [Completed]
16. Complete a 26 Things project, all on places/things in DC.
17. Create an actual photography website. [In the process]
18. Shoot a deployment return/reunion. [Completed 1/09]
19. Create my own camera bag, and use it. [Completed]
20. Get a piggybank. Fill it.
21. Don't be afraid to take tons of photos at Eastern Market's produce section. [Completed]
22. Buy some Louboutin's, or atleast pick out the ones I will some day, have. [Completed]
23. Make my own fashion blog.
24. Actually finish a scrapbook, I start. [Completed]
25. Make a montage of photos from Boy Scout Camp. [Completed, slideshows with Jason Summer 2009]
26. Make a tribute of photos, of my Dad.
27. Buy more filters for my camera lenses. [Completed 8-4-08]
28. Get some abs.
29. Stop procrastinating. [Completed]
30. Frame and sale some of my work.
31. Actually rock my PINK wedding shoes. :D
32. Step up from my Pilates Beginning Mat workout, and onto the Weight Loss one.
33. Memorize the Hula dance from my video and perform it for anyone who cares. ;)
34. Start journaling, again.
35. Write a new poem.
36. Lose 10 pounds, before Christmas. [Completed]
37. Actually weigh myself. [Completed 8-08]
38. Realize that no matter what I weigh, I look good, already. It ain't nuttin' but a number. [Completed]
39. Work at camp, atleast one more summer. [Completed]
40. Set up a darkroom.
41. Learn Spanish, with Rosetta Stone. I guess it doesn't have to be with The Stone. :)
42. Get my camera's lighting right at night, and take a great photo of DC at night. [Completed]
43. Memorize, for the most part, my camera's manual, so I can use my camera to it's maximum potential. :)
44. Take my Tripod out of its box, and use it. [Completed 09/08]
45. Pay off my Victoria's Secret card, whose balance is high, only because Semi Annual just passed. Normally it is always zeroed out.
46. Make my own mean cup of Chai tea.
47. Make some specialty cupcakes for the guys Jason works with. [Completed]
48. Branch out and try to meet new people. [Completed]
49. Get to know the neighbors, better. [Completed]
50. Use watermarks/graphics on my photos. [Completed]
51. Take my Mom to Eastern Market. [Completed 09/08]
52. Buy some of the beautiful flowers they sell at the Market. [Completed]
53. Get better at graphics. [Completed]
54. Create and buy my own items from Cafe Press. :)
55. Make up my own recipes. [Completed]
56. Host a dinner party and be an amazing hostess. [Completed]
57. Make an apron.
58. Sell my stuff at Eastern Market.
59. Make a cord bracelet.
60. Bring some more Blue Bell back up to DC, next time I go down South.
61. Set up my own backdrop. [Completed]
62. Set up in faery set.
63. Have a fashion photoshoot.
64. Design my own lingerie line.
65. Learn to play Cribbage.
66. Create my own artwork, aside from photography.
67. Have frozen hot chocolate at Serendipity3 in NYC. [Visited Serendipity3, 1/09]
68. Go to Central Park. [Completed 1/09]
69. Have a cupcake at Magnolia Bakery or Billy's Bakery, in NYC. [2 cupcakes from Magnolia, 1/09]
70. Identify 100 things that make me happy.
71. See the lighting of a Christmas tree in DC. [Completed, Alexandria, 11/08]
72. Go to a Nats game. [Completed Summer 2009]
73. Keep in touch with friends, better. [Completed]
74. Get my Look Book up to speed.
75. Make my own lists of fashion rules I live by. [Completed]
76. Make my own soap.
77. Go to Thrift Shops in this area. [Completed]
78. Get a 'Go-to' bag. [Completed 8-1-08]
79. Make my own body scrub.
80. Make my own lip gloss.
81. Create a portfolio of my work.
82. Learn how to tie a bandana on my head, correctly.
83. Enter my photos in contests. [Completed 09/08]
84. Make my own biscotti.
85. Take some new black and white photos.
86. Catch up with an old friend. [Completed 10/08]
87. Organize my bookmarks, on Firefox. [Completed]
89. Make artwork for walls. [Completed]
90. Create photo collage on walls. [Completed]
91. Create a theme for the random, upstairs spare room.
92. Make my own cupcake recipe.
93. Decide on kids' names. [Completed]
94. Decide where we would like to move, after DC. [Completed]
95. Go to the Maryland Renaissance Festival. [Completed]
96. Visit the National Cathedral. [Completed]
97. Visit atleast one Embassy.
98. Take a tour of the Capitol City Brewery. [Completed]
99. Go to Georgetown. [Completed 12/08]
100. Take Jason to the Spy Museum.
101. Get a GREAT fireworks shot. [Completed, NYC, 1/01/09]
7.04.2008
Trying to Conceive..
Seriously.
I must be the only person around me, who isn't pregnant or currently trying to conceive or TTC, as it is known here in 'Military Land.' And, I honestly do not want a child right now. I have so many things I want to accomplish before then, so many things to see and do. I am still being selfish, because when I get pregnant, I do not want to be selfish anymore. I want my children to be my world, along with Jason and Dublin. :) I want to be wonderful mother, who will sacrifice my own wants and needs for my children. And, yes, I do want more than one.
For now, having freedom is wonderful. I love not having a reason to be tied down or an excuse not to be able to do things. It is honestly very hard for me to fathom why someone who is barely 18, would be purposely be trying to have a child. I am twenty-two years old and consider myself to be a very intelligent and mature individual, and I am here to tell you, I am not ready for a child. I do think I am closer to being ready than someone who has barely been married a year and is still but a child. Today is different than 50 years ago, and a heck of a lot harder of a world to attempt to raise a child in, at an age where you are still a child. Now, I know, I am always going to be learning, growing. I do not think you need to know everything before you try to have a child, but I do think you need to have a little more life experience than high school, and little more than that.
Nevertheless, my life and my choices are to wait until I feel better prepared to have a child and not be a child, raising a child. Being a Mother will be wonderful, when I am ready. And, I think that is a very adult-like thing to do, wait.
Children are much more than playthings or dolls, they are human beings who deserve the best life that can be given them. And, my children will have all that I can give them. And, above any material thing I can give them, I will give them my love and I will hand over my selfishness, for my life will no longer be just about me. It will no longer be just about Jason and I. It will be about the amazing beings God sends to us. I am excited to become a Mom, but, I can wait. :)
I must be the only person around me, who isn't pregnant or currently trying to conceive or TTC, as it is known here in 'Military Land.' And, I honestly do not want a child right now. I have so many things I want to accomplish before then, so many things to see and do. I am still being selfish, because when I get pregnant, I do not want to be selfish anymore. I want my children to be my world, along with Jason and Dublin. :) I want to be wonderful mother, who will sacrifice my own wants and needs for my children. And, yes, I do want more than one.
For now, having freedom is wonderful. I love not having a reason to be tied down or an excuse not to be able to do things. It is honestly very hard for me to fathom why someone who is barely 18, would be purposely be trying to have a child. I am twenty-two years old and consider myself to be a very intelligent and mature individual, and I am here to tell you, I am not ready for a child. I do think I am closer to being ready than someone who has barely been married a year and is still but a child. Today is different than 50 years ago, and a heck of a lot harder of a world to attempt to raise a child in, at an age where you are still a child. Now, I know, I am always going to be learning, growing. I do not think you need to know everything before you try to have a child, but I do think you need to have a little more life experience than high school, and little more than that.
Nevertheless, my life and my choices are to wait until I feel better prepared to have a child and not be a child, raising a child. Being a Mother will be wonderful, when I am ready. And, I think that is a very adult-like thing to do, wait.
Children are much more than playthings or dolls, they are human beings who deserve the best life that can be given them. And, my children will have all that I can give them. And, above any material thing I can give them, I will give them my love and I will hand over my selfishness, for my life will no longer be just about me. It will no longer be just about Jason and I. It will be about the amazing beings God sends to us. I am excited to become a Mom, but, I can wait. :)
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